The Health System doesn't allow older people to age with grace and fortitude. I too have been pulled into this awful system. What is wrong with living your last years with dignity, what's wrong with children who jump the gun and decide what their aging parents need?
I think I was pulled into that vortex, Mom will be taken care of and we kids won't have too worry. She isn't eating regularly... yet we were there leaving her food and cooking for her. So what if she slept late, wore her PJ's until after 12 noon. So what. She earned it, she raised us five children, four girls and one boy; and put up with the man who she loved, even against his constant illnesses. She deserves to live her life out in a quiet environment. A damn hospital...the place she never wanted to go to. I worked hard getting her apartment and other senior things that she was entitled to; and then I too, gave in. I am so full of guilt for being part of this plot; and forever full of sorrow that I allowed myself to be fooled that my gypsy Italian momma would ever be happy in a place like that. It's as if I trimmed off her wings .. so she could never fly again.
Tomorrow I will see if I can get her back into her apartment. I pray that I can. Maybe the next time a emergency happens...God will be ready to welcome her back to heaven, where she belongs. Believe me there is far more to this story; but to what degree do you take it...so I will take the blame and if need be I will have a room available at my house.
More to follow... but will it be written.. only time will tell.
